I'm So Sorry (vs Claudia Michaels)

Everyday I’m thankful, grateful, and blessed for the lessons, the love, and the challege of life. Millons of you, through the good and the bad, have made me who I am today. Whether I’m walking in a beautiful meadow or an awful mountain, I always met people who inspired me and wanting me to be better than I was yesterday. Even though I know I’m such a late bloomer, the constants desire of beating the world is always in my thoughts hence why I’m always doing all I can to reach the destinations that I’m aiming for. Most of time I failed but it’s a bothersome if I never try of something I want rather than living in uncertainty and questioning myself if “I can’t do it” or “I won’t do it”. Thanksfully, I’m always optimistic and having the mindset of “I can do it”. If I meet failures though then I’ll just say “let’s try it again”.

Apparently, it translates to the majority of people who know me and they always say I have the fighting spirits and that always motivate me to keep going. Some of them who said that aren’t even friends but I’m always happy that people I don’t know on a personal level or maybe even haters acknowledge me as someone that don’t give up so easily.

Imagine what a friend can do to me with such words...

I’m truly honored when you said you want to be my friend, Claudia Michaels. I don’t know if you ever watched The EpiCenter episode 2 but I did say it that I do consider you as a friend despite you already pointed it out that I don’t spend a lot of time with you. Perhaps I can even consider you as an Older Sister of mine in this business because you’ve been nothing but so nice to me and I’m truly thanksful for everything you’ve done to me. First, you picked me as one of the participants at The Ladder match to be the number one contender for The American Dream Championship back at Violent Delights despite I had zero wins back then. You even said it to me that I have the hearts and the respect and apparently those were enough for you to include me in that match. You notice something in me and I will never forget that. Second, you asked Mr. Jaywalker where was he when The Professional attacked me out of nowhere and while I know you mentioned it just because you care about Wrestle World in general and perhaps finding a chance to criticize Mr. Jaywalker in a harassing manner, but at least I’m happy that I was in the little corner of your thoughts. And third, while I’m not a fan of the way you protesting things, you decided to cut it short just because you want to meet me in the ring. You didn’t and don’t have to do all that but I’m honestly happy with the way you treat me so far. I really mean it. A Friend or an Older Sister, doesn’t matter me, but at least now you know what my answers is if you really want to be my friend, Claudia.

To top it all, you apparently know that I’ve always been a fan of yours and as you said, I feel so lucky to be noticed by someone who I really look up to and I’m very grateful for it. I don’t even remember doing anything to you but I can proudly say that you’re indeed very generous when it comes to the fans of yours. I’m hoping more people to notice this and I can honestly say, you’re not as worst as people think you are. Sure, you’re not perfect and neither am I. No one really are but I do think you have more of a good side rather than a bad one. Personally I don’t always agree with the way you do things just like I said before but I can at least understand why you do things with your own ways.

With all due to respect though, Claudia. Agreeing and understanding are two different things. First, as your fan, I know your history when it comes to friends or partners. I’ve seen how you betrayed some of them and how they betrayed you. It truly pains me to see a few of your friendships didn’t last long and that’s why I’ll be more than happy to be your friend despite I already consider you as one but do you honestly feel the need to test out of a friend’s loyalty with an extreme method? Is that the reason why you picked me as your opponent for your Wrestle World debut? Is that why you decided to use The Outlaw Rules for our match? If you’re worried about my loyalty then you don’t  have to because I have never betrayed a friend in my whole life, Claudia. You can doubt me if you want but I was in your position once and it just happened a few months ago back at OWA Boiling Points and I know how it feels to be betrayed. I understand the pain and the anger of getting betrayed and that’s why I don’t want to rat out anyone who’s on good terms with me and I’m very sorry, but that’s including Reno Dumont too.

Admitelly, I’m in an awkard position now. I see Reno the way I see you too Claudia, I’m a fan of the guy too and this is really awkard to see you both insulting one another. I’m really confused right now. But regardless, I do have a faith in Reno that he just wants to capture the golds as much as possible and I don’t think he needs my help to defeat you at Violent Ends. He wants a piece of you so bad, I’m pretty sure he wants to do it all by himself. It’s better for me to stay out of this anyway. You both are adults, you both do what you want to do. I’ll be happy to join you if you really want me as your friend but I don’t think I’d help you out to get rid of Reno. Hopefully that doesn’t offend you any further, Claudia. I’m so sorry that I didn’t reach out to you when I was looking for a partner. I’m so sorry that I have offended you and I’m just hoping you’re able to forgive me. I didn’t even know that you’d be willing to be my partner too regardless Mr. Jaywalker agreed or not. I can honestly say, you do really mean it when you said you care about me.

But once again, I’m so sorry but I don’t think I’ll walk away from this match, Claudia. You’re the one who challenged me in the first place and I’m honestly very exited to face you off again after 2 years. Yes, that’s true, we both faced off in a champion vs a champion match and you did beat me fair and square but if you think I was ashamed of it then you’re sadly mistaken. I didn’t feel I was humiliated. As a matter of fact, I was proud I was able to push you into your limit and that’s why I’m very thanksful that you picked me as your opponent for your official Wrestle World debut because I do think I have a chance to beat you at Chapter 6. Why? Because as i said before, If I meet failures I’ll just say “let’s try it again”.

Please understand this Claudia, I really look up to you and I honestly already consider you as my friend but this match can be a stepping stone of my career and all thanks to you. Sure, you’re doubting me and my wrestling career and everything you said are true. Everyone are succeeded of using me as stepping stones but if I’m able to push you to the limit just like I did to you 2 years ago or even beating you I believe something good will come to me. Maybe you’d name me as a participant of The Bloodbath Battle Royal after you see how well I performed againts you? Maybe Mr. Jaywalker or even you Claudia, would put me into The American Dream Championship at Violent Ends? With all due to respect to Reno, I’d be the one who challenged if The Proffesional didn’t ruin it for me, Claudia. That’s why I know what I’m capable off and I know I have what it takes to be The American Dream Champion and once again, with all due to respect to Reno, I know I’m still able to score a victory in a single match or a “all for one” match such as the ladder match. If Drake And Jones didn’t invite me to join their D&J Games, I know I’ll still stick around in Wrestle World and finding my own way to climb to the top because as you pointed out yourself I have the fighting spirits and it will never faded away.

You hit the nail on the head though that it was my mistake that I had a doubt to use weapons againts Tristan Killebrew and he did beat me fair and square. I wasn’t ashamed of the losing but I did regret of not trying to play the rules. Well then, it’s not like I want to hurt you, because you know how I feel towards you, but you’re a tough woman Claudia. You signed the contract to be the American Dream Architect because you know that you’re ready for your make up to be messed up when people hit your face with a weapon. If this what it takes for me to go into another level, then I certainly will play by your rules. Don’t regret this, my friend, I’ll be the wild beast that you expected me to be 2 years ago.